
Price: $39.95
Page Count: 280
Publication Date: December 2025
ISBN: 978-1-77258-564-3
Barren: An Exploration of the Journey to Parenthood invites readers to reconceive infertility as rich and fecund and as part of parcel of the process of reproduction, regardless of outcome. Writing in a range of genres, contributors draw on personal experience— heartbreaking, heart-opening, and everywhere in between—to analyze and theorize the common, yet underexamined, experience of infertility and to challenge the stigma and silencing that surround it. The vulnerability and candor of the contributors’ accounts, as well as the suggestions about how to acknowledge and support those who are experiencing infertility, will engage and serve practitioners of reproductive medicine as well as lay audiences who are themselves, or accompanying those, on the rocky road to parenthood.
- Katherine Mack, Professor of English, University of Colorado Colorado Springs
Barren is a powerful and necessary anthology of creative and personal writing on infertility, pregnancy loss, maternal regret, and unfulfilled desire. Structured around the themes of Resistance, Resilience, and Empowerment, the volume brings together voices that confront shared traumas and transform silence into collective healing and strength. Barren foregrounds lived experience and embodied knowledge as vital forms of resistance and epistemology. While deeply affective, the anthology also invites critical reflection, offering an essential intervention into feminist theory, reproductive justice, and maternal studies.A vital volume for anyone interested in feminist life writing, the politics of care and loss, and the emotional complexity of reproductive life.
- Dr Veronica Frigeni, Centre for Feminist Research - York University
Barren is not a story of absence. It is a testament to the fullness of experience and a collective act of feminist truth-telling that insists infertility is not a failure, but a fertile ground for empathy, insight, and transformation. It is a powerful anthology that reclaims the term and redefines fertility—not by outcomes, but by the emotional, physical, and spiritual labor of trying.
- Rachel O'Donnell, Associate Professor and Associate Academic Director
Susan B Anthony Institute for Gender, Sexuality, and Women's Studies
Barren brings together powerful, personal accounts of heartache by fertility warriors, people who often face dismissal and suffer in silence with unimaginable grief and overwhelm. These diverse narratives break the silence of what countless others face on their path toward or through parenthood, including my own. This collection of works is also poetic, crafted in an artful way that the emotions of each courageous and resilient author leap off the pages. Thank you to the storytellers for their bravery.
- Laura Spencer, MPP, ACC, Certified fertility coach, fertility warrior, and mom
Introduction
Judy LeBlanc and Tasha Page
Page 5
Resistance, Resilience, Empowerment
Chapter One
I Don’t Know How to Start
Carrie Reid
Page 14
Chapter Two
This was a Desired Pregnancy
Elizabeth Marian Charles
Page 26
Chapter Three
I am the Mother, Not the Other
Claudia Moutray
Page 43
Chapter Four
Infertile Platitudes of Embodied Emptiness
Sally Butcher
Page 53
Chapter Five
Reading the Future: On Teaching The Handmaid’s Tale While Undergoing IVF
Nicola Waldron
Page 71
Chapter Six
Navigating Maternal Regret in the Context of Infertility: Intersectional and Intergenerational Considerations
Sonia Meerai
Page 86
II. Resilience, Resistance, Empowerment
Chapter Seven
Holding Guilt and Hope: A Journey of Pregnancy and Loss with Cancer
Cheryl Heykoop
Page 107
Chapter Eight
My Brain, My Choice: Navigating Motherhood and Assisted Reproduction with Cancer
Hannah Feiner
Page 121
Chapter Nine
Breaking Dormancy
Katie Thompson
Page 141
Chapter Ten
Cry of Love
Hannah Camus
Page 145
Chapter Eleven
Patterns of Belonging
C. Martens
Page 166
III. Empowerment, Resistance, Resilience
Chapter Twelve
Building Strength through Connection: Finding Support in my Journey with Infertility
Tasha Page
Page 184
Chapter Thirteen
Navigating Against the Current: Pam and Lise’s Journey
Pam Lengyel & Lise Laguë
Page 208
Chapter Fourteen
The Shield
JoAnn McCaig
Page 222
Chapter Fifteen
Navigating Postpartum Anxiety after Pregnancy Loss and Secondary Infertility
Rana Van Tuyl
Page 229
Chapter Sixteen
Journey Into the in-Between: Psychedelics and Pregnancy Loss
Hillary L. McBride and Larissa Rossen
Page 237
Chapter Seventeen
“Everyone’s Got Their Own Story and that’s Mine”- A Poetic Presentation of Women’s Counselling Experiences, as Part of Fertility Treatment in the UK
Ruth Paterson
Page 258
Chapter Eighteen
(In)Fertile Creations: Artist Reflections on Infertility, Creativity, and Mental Health
Maria Novotny
Page 283
About the Contributors
Page 313
Judy LeBlanc’s stories, essays and reviews have appeared in Canadian magazines and in the Demeter Press anthology, Don’t Tell: Family Secrets. The Promise of Water, a collection of short stories, preceded her novel, The Broken Heart of Winter. Her most recent book, a memoir in essays, Permission to Land was published in 2024. She has a background in youth and family counselling and taught creative writing at North Island College for several years.
Tasha Page RSW is a social worker and a mom of two amazing IVF babies. Tasha’s own journey with infertility, high risk pregnancy, and pregnancy loss led her to be a passionate advocate for reproductive mental health. Tasha is privileged to live on the unceded territory of the K’omoks First Nation where she owns and operates Glacier Counselling, a private counselling practice specializing in perinatal mental health. When she’s not working, Tasha can be found riding her mountain bike or skiing while trying to keep up with her kids.